What Should Be Motivation

I only fit in one pair of my pants.
Yet, today I ate cookie dough and a half sleeve of Oreos.

Inhale the future. Exhale the past.

I question whether I dare to dream this new dream when I'm fresh off of failure. I don't know what the key to success is in this journey to health but I know I will never give up trying to find it. There are days I try to convince myself that I don't want the body I hope for but those days never linger long. I know what I want. I just haven't yet found the right vehicle to get there.

Well, maybe I have. I will go back to what speaks to my soul. I will set my intention and offer my sun salutation and listen to my heart. I will allow myself to grow slowly. I will seek not the outward change but the inward. I will dream whilst keeping rooted in reality. I will practice. I will become. I will dare to dream.

My commitment:

• For the remainder of 2015 I will return to my yoga practice. I will practice several times a week and seek strength, balance, and energy.

• The year 2016 will be 366 days of yoga. Every. Damn. Day.

• In July of 2017 I will become Yoga Alliance certified by completing a 200 hour yoga teacher training.

I have failed in the past to become who I want to be. But, my past does not define me. Why am I here on Earth if not to change, to overcome, to become better each day. I was once told that if my dreams don't scare me, they aren't big enough. Well, I'm scared. And I'm excited! And I want this! I have a long ways to go. I have work to do. I have two years to prepare to become ytt certified. Two years. Though I don't want to focus on the numbers I have a goal to be at 175lbs by then. That feels scary. Yes. My dreams are big enough. And I'm ready to exhale the past and inhale in the future.